We all suffer various losses through this sometimes very painful time period called LIFE.
MY OWN individual losses have ALWAYS been way beyond too TREMENDOUS!
I really wonder how, during most of my grievous lamentable life, I have somehow actually gotten through my really grim, bleak and totally UNSATISFYING waste of life. There have been way too many sorrowful moments that I really should have taken ALL my excruciating pain away. But there must be something that keeps me on this very cruel evil place while I continue on in my very lugubrious and beyond dismal existence down here.
I have lost way more than I even care to reexamine, but in the very context of this post, I must really reach deep down inside me as I put forth my effort to attempt to accomplish this very achievement.
So, to start this feat off, I must firmly declare with ALL my conviction,
If I was smart enough to remember this very pertinent assertion, I would still have HIM to this very day!
Since I wasn't though, I must reveal that I most recently lost the most important one in my ENTIRE life EVER!
"If you don't come back to me, and help me out, I will have to break it off. I will leave it up to you."
he firmly stated to me.
My particular unfortunate circumstances, and exactly where I was, didn't exactly work at all, in my favor. So, I made the very worst decision of my entire life, and regretting it ever since. The ONE SINGLE & ONLY one that I have EVER EVER cared so deeply for AND also LOVED with ALL my heart and soul as well as EVERY fiber of my being!
HE was ALL that I have EVER wanted!
His multitude of endless, loving, & really caring qualities, as well as his perfect body and mannerisms were all more than I could ever hope for in another nearly perfect person.
But, in addition, I have also lost my...
... childhood, in that, it was a very turbulent time for me since I had almost no friends, and was always being made fun of for something that I actually wasn't at all.
...virginity, as we all do, but much much later than all my peers.
...Father to a totally tragic undeserved and unwarranted, homicide.
... an inheritance that I received from my dad's demise because of the overwhelmingly beyond horrible stock market. So much for trying to do the responsible execution with a lot of capital.
MY own loss list goes on and on in my exploits of life, however, the ones that I am most lost & really hurt about are way beyond very special to me in life. They will NEVER speak to me again. I have tried repeatedly to rekindle our relationship, but much to my total dismay, to absolutely NO avail. I can just say that they were so way beyond special, as well as very smart, good looking and even very withdrawn. Now I must deal with this absolutely painful loss in my life that really could have been entirely avoided, but my anger, rage and total stupidity, got the best of