My Most CRUSHING, PAINFUL & UNBEARABLE day EVER!

Updated: Jul 9, 2021

I think I have given up.



Because,

RIP - My relationship

Sept 25th, 2019 - We met

Oct 17th, 2019 - dating

Dec 1, 2020 - NO more


I have been in a few relationships in this past half century. NONE, however, have ever been, nor ever will be, as blissful and so very gratifying as mine was with Rob. The 1st one ever that was everything I ever dreamt of and wanted.


1st impression - He was so fucking gorgeous!

Perfect body

AND

YOUNG, SWEET & SMOOTH!

This is exactly what I have ALWAYS wanted!


Then as we converged and joined our new lives together, he was the ONLY one to ever have ME completely in such high regard without even giving himself a 2nd thought. He was always looking out for me, NEVER to have any ulterior motives or deep dark self interests of any kind. He was always urging me to better myself and be very healthy in everything I did along with suggesting I further my education.

He was 150% Self-LESS always concerned about me exclusively.


I fucked my life up beyond words, feelings, and emotions today when I left him sleeping and headed home. The absolute WORST decision I ever made.



He, unfortunately, didn't know I had left and called me when I was already on the freeway. We spoke, and he asked me if I snuck out on him like I did once before. Since I didn't have the balls to say, "yes" I told him I was just out and would be back, and he even asked for me to bring him breakfast. I continued on and knew I was totally out of line and doing what I SHOULD NOT have done. Deep down I was & still am languishing about